Happy birthday my nigga @mitchwfh
My closure to myself after my first true love
I never let my past hold me back.. All the shit that life has put me through i never let it get to me until I met you because you were the future i wanted the future that i thought that i could have. But time made me realize that I can’t let you hold me back. I have to realize that you are no longer my future you are now my past. I’m moving on because I always believed if you wanted something bad enough you have to never give up which I did I never gave up I always tried to make everything work even when it hurt like hell I still tried I still haven’t given up but I realized that you have, you say that pushing me away is just the way you are well I agree and that’s why I didn’t let it get to me but when you hurt me to my core like deep down to my core. You pushed me then and It hurt me more made me feel like you really didn’t love me I couldn’t feel the love you had anymore I saw you differently I saw all your actions as a sign that you don’t love me because that’s the reality of it you didn’t love me anymore when you hurt someone the way you hurt me there is no reset button there’s no way to get back to the way it was because you ruined that and it’s selfish of you to not make the attempt to try to make me realize that I am wrong to think you don’t love me.. You honestly have never showed me the same love that I gave you after you hurt me. You left me to fix my own broken heart so don’t be surprised when I fix my own heart that I won’t let you break or touch it again because you wanted to leave you wanted to have fun but you wanted to do it all when I was still hurt when I was still unsure of your love for me but i let you because I couldn’t stand looking at you and telling me the lies that I let myself believe because If you loved me you would have never done what you did to me no matter what temptations but your young so real love is hard for you to understand or be ready for but I’m letting you know that you had someone that loved you with ALL Their heart and you let that person go, you pushed that person away, you hurt that person more than anyone ever has in his entire life. And you let him have to go through this pain on his own.. The last couple months have been hard but I don’t let you hold me back I am still doing what I normally do I have been moving on but no matter how much I do there is still these thoughts in my head there is still pain in my heart there is still this thought that I love you still. These thoughts might never go away but I know that I won’t let them stop me from moving on and accomplishing my goals..i thought we were going to be a love story but you ended up becoming the first thing in my life that has ever broke me..